It hurts

It hurts when you say all those words to me. I know it's not even harsh, but little do you know that it hurts. I know you tried to say it nicely but the way you say it somehow make it hurts. At the end of the day, one has to make his own decision. The decision that I made is based on my own choice. I decided to stop. Stop trying. No matter how hard I tried before, you're just going to see that very moment when I decided to stop. What happened to all the efforts that I put into it? Do you know that I tried everything that I can do already? No matter how hard I tried, no matter how endless my effort is, no matter what other ways i did, if it is not meant to be, it will not be it. That's why I decided it is time for me to stop. Yes, I stopped trying. For the best, I assumed. It's not I didn't want to go there, but it's time to stop and just go on with what I'm doing right now. It's time for me to finally move on. Do you really think I wanted to stop trying myself? I had viewed the point from the best and the worst. I wanted to be there. With all my heart, I wanted to be there. But that's not what had been written for me. I had tried, and it didn't turn out as what I wanted. It's not for me. It never will be. I wanted to be there. Let me dream because that's all left for me to do. I know I had stopped trying, but at least let me dream even though I am at no place to do so. Still, no matter what the reason is, you're just going to think that I'm a quitter. Yes, yes. You're right. And what I did is wrong. And it hurts. That's it. It hurts. 

"You had done your best. It's okay now. I'm proud of you."